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If you have anything to do with a certain RPG... get the hell otta here. LIke...leave me alone Katt...
I'm in my 40's. I've always been able to draw. However, I never did anything with it. My mother was a drunk, so art supplies were not warranted.  Still, I managed. In highschool I spent my entire day in the art room. Teachers never expected me to stay in class or do any work. I even had my own 'room' for my work. I dropped out. I ran away. I went to England (where I was born) and fell into the street life of the 90's.

I was beaten and left for dead on the side of the road. I fractured hip, torn ACL. Which I never got fixed. Now I am really paying for it. Pain is a constant friend. Simply walking some days is out of the question...  I had, last year found someone that was the greatest muse I had ever come across. He made me want to strive to create, made me want to be more than I was... made me want to live.... and all I did was do everything I could to destroy that. Everything I could to drive him away.

I know... I don't like people being close. I can hardly manage text based friendships and I LOATH facebook.

I'm also a cutter. Have been since I was 14. Seems to be something I will never outgrow...even to this day I find myself sitting with a sharp drawing crimson lines upon my skin.

I won't kill myself. Cutting is not being suicidal .... I just can't seem to find the person, that one other that GETS me... that understands my need to draw, my need to lock myself away, my need to be alone, for quiet, for nature, for..... pain. I simply do not fit into society and for that I am being judged.

I don't steal from people. I care about the environment, I love animals. ( have 16)... and yet, I am somehow seen unfit because I don't care about superficial things. I'm tired of being alone in my world... but I'm too broken, too fucked up to be loved.... so why then, should I bother living...? Fuck if I know..... and yet I do.
Recently I feel like I have been attacked. Not so much by anyone on dA, although I am certain some of the rude comments I have gotten were from those people that crossed over from DragonsMark.com to dA just to slander me.

First, let it be known that I don't really think of myself as a real artist. I can't just draw things without looking at something. As in... faces. I LOVE drawing faces. The more detail the better. I can paint some off the wall images from my head, alas, I am not in a place I can afford to do such.

I've made a wee bit of money from drawing animals for people. Their beloved pets and such from images they have given me. I tend to draw in a 'photo-realistic' style and still have a raw edge to things. I'm not worried about my images looking smooth of seamless, more trying to capture a feeling.... which is what I do for the people I draw animals for. I try to capture the personality of their family pet. Anyhooooo..

There is this websit.... DragonsMark. It's a role playing site. AD&D style text base. So, I had drawn some images and given credit to where I got them from on dA.... then turned around and used them for a character image on this site. I was asked if I drew them, I said I did.... well.... I did draw them. Sure, I looked at a photo.... and I linked people to my page where the original photo was openly credited..   somehow I got branded as a thief and this community of 20 or so people started calling me names and even contacting people I had drawn from and telling them I was stealing their art.

Now, there was an image I had found on Google or Tumblr that I had used for an albino character because I was too lazy to try and draw her. I like drawing dark things.... not.... er.... albino things. Well, that seemed to be a bomb. I didn't give credit to where I found the image. Now.... mind you... if you look at the other people on the site many. many people to NOT give credit as to where they found the image... who drew it.... who took the photo..ect... and yet, I seemed to be the only one being singled out...

www.dragonsmark.com/forums/vie…

That is the link to the forum. I invite anyone to voice their opinion on the matter.
Just because you can draw does not mean you are an artist. Just because you know how to use a pen does not make you a writer. Some people think a little too much of themselves. They have their own head shoved so far up their own ass all they can smell is their own shit.

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Tonya Jane Bennett
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States
I am not who I want to be. Life does not always play to the tune in our hearts and minds. So for now, I am what I must be. In time, perhaps I will be free from the shadow just behind me.
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marijeberting Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2017
Thanks for the watch and the Llama Tonya :D (Big Grin) 
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satandap Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the watch :-)
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iastSA Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2016
Happy birthday!
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kittyloca Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013
Thank you for+fav , most appreciated 
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FreeTheCows Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2011  Student General Artist
Happy B-Day!!!:party:
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FreeTheCows Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2010  Student General Artist
Happy B-Day!!:party:
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ObscureFamous Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010   Traditional Artist
Oh, that was for inclusion btw.
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ObscureFamous Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010   Traditional Artist
Thanks for the print request so long ago. It is available now!
Have a good one!
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Mugshots-UK Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the :+devwatch: :thanks:
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Nasheima Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Love your shots. Hope you don't mind, but they have given me many, many ideas... it's always nice to find a new and interesting Muse.
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